The obligatory blog about my lack of blogging...
Yep, it's been a while. Where've you been?
Oh, it was me that went away? Riiiiight. Oops. My bad.
Seriously, there was a reason for the silence at Casa de Oblivious. As you know if you've been reading this blog for long, I enjoy the benefits of a chemical imbalance in my brain, colloquially known as clinical depression (I also have the distinct pleasure to have an anxiety disorder, but that's not what we're talking about at the moment). Normally, and by normally I mean normally for me, my depression is manageable. Sometimes it gets a little uppity, but I can usually deal with it. Recently, though, not so much with the dealing.
Yeah, I had a major depressive episode. The worst one of my life. Very debilitating. Truly an historic experience. And I do mean historic, because it's over. Done with. Kaput. All gone. So please take note: we're not having a pity party at the palatial Oblivious Estate tonight. I don't want anybody to feel bad for me, and I don't want anybody to worry about me. I'm fine. Really. I've been dealing with my depression for almost 25 years. It's not new, it's not incurable, and it's certainly not gonna stop me.
Well, ok, it did stop me from blogging. But that was just a temporary setback.
So, since I don't want to get all touchy-feely, why bother explaining at all? Two reasons. First, honesty compels me. It wouldn't be right to pretend nothing happened on a site where I am always brutally honest. Second, I decided a few years ago to stop apologizing for my depression. It's real, and it's a part of me, and sometimes it gets the better of me. When that happens, I'm going to take responsibility for whatever I did or didn't do during the episode, but I'm also not going to beat myself up over my fallibility.
So, among other things, in this case I didn't blog. Mea culpa. There was a reason, and now you know what that reason was. It may happen again, or it may not. In the meantime, life goes on.
Now, on to the important stuff: has anybody seen my monkey? It was right here a minute ago...
Oh, it was me that went away? Riiiiight. Oops. My bad.
Seriously, there was a reason for the silence at Casa de Oblivious. As you know if you've been reading this blog for long, I enjoy the benefits of a chemical imbalance in my brain, colloquially known as clinical depression (I also have the distinct pleasure to have an anxiety disorder, but that's not what we're talking about at the moment). Normally, and by normally I mean normally for me, my depression is manageable. Sometimes it gets a little uppity, but I can usually deal with it. Recently, though, not so much with the dealing.
Yeah, I had a major depressive episode. The worst one of my life. Very debilitating. Truly an historic experience. And I do mean historic, because it's over. Done with. Kaput. All gone. So please take note: we're not having a pity party at the palatial Oblivious Estate tonight. I don't want anybody to feel bad for me, and I don't want anybody to worry about me. I'm fine. Really. I've been dealing with my depression for almost 25 years. It's not new, it's not incurable, and it's certainly not gonna stop me.
Well, ok, it did stop me from blogging. But that was just a temporary setback.
So, since I don't want to get all touchy-feely, why bother explaining at all? Two reasons. First, honesty compels me. It wouldn't be right to pretend nothing happened on a site where I am always brutally honest. Second, I decided a few years ago to stop apologizing for my depression. It's real, and it's a part of me, and sometimes it gets the better of me. When that happens, I'm going to take responsibility for whatever I did or didn't do during the episode, but I'm also not going to beat myself up over my fallibility.
So, among other things, in this case I didn't blog. Mea culpa. There was a reason, and now you know what that reason was. It may happen again, or it may not. In the meantime, life goes on.
Now, on to the important stuff: has anybody seen my monkey? It was right here a minute ago...
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Posted by Stan Rogers At 06:56:26 PM On 12/08/2005 | - Website - |
Posted by Duffbert At 07:45:06 PM On 12/08/2005 | - Website - |
Posted by Julian Robichaux At 04:56:57 AM On 12/09/2005 | - Website - |
Bush rules, you pinko commie bunny hugging, tree kissing ice-cap-melting lefty!
Ah, I feel right with the world now.
Posted by Tom At 08:10:16 AM On 12/09/2005 | - Website - |
Stan, we'll have to compare notes some time - fugal and reclusive it is!
Oh, and Tom, I love you too, man!
*grin*
Posted by Captain O At 02:22:18 PM On 12/09/2005 | - Website - |
i haven't seen your monkey. and don't worry, if i do i won't get touchy feely with it.
Posted by jonvon At 06:46:27 AM On 12/12/2005 | - Website - |
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Posted by Kevin At 06:07:56 AM On 12/15/2005 | - Website - |
Happy to hear things are better for you now.
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